No surprise...

If you have read any of the history between Hawk and I,(see "this" and maybe read through the history of my other blog, here) it will not surprise you to find out that even though he was supposed to pick me up so we could spend time together this weekend, he didn't call until 3:30 am... I had no baby sitter until 6am, he told me to call thim back at 6 am, and I have been trying for 5 1/2 hours, but his phone is off the hook... It is always either exactly the way he wants it or not at all... maybe I will hear from him today, and maybe I won't... knowing Hawk, it may be 6 weeks before I hear from him again... that is the way it always works with him...(I told my friend the other day Hawk is just an addiction for me... even after months, I can't seem to say no... maybe if I could find a real man that would treat me better I could let go...)